Life Lately

It's only Wednesday? Or it's Wednesday already! I don't know what best describes today. Currently at a stage of life when i am not very concerned about time but i am also taking it seriously. No in between. A lot has been going on these days and i am feeling the need to do a recap of events, big and small, or just random ones. Or actually, let me just share how life is lately.

Let's start with the people i miss: The brothers! I know my digital absence is getting into their nerves, and the tantrums too lol. Why i find it fun to annoy them 😆.

Work: In equal intensity these past weeks, i have been playing and actually working at the same time. Additional responsibilities make me feel funny coz they make me realize how dumb i am. When i think too much, i think i might go mad, so i stop and play. Balance is the key!

Social/ Personal: Some days i wish i could unload everything in my brain to someone who mutually connects, or some days i like to just listen to someone who feels the same. It's comforting to know that someone relates. Sometimes i crave for a deep connection, but i just suck like hell at communication. I know everyone would love to tell me "you are so quiet" or "you are weird". What can i do! Believe me, i would love to talk. But my thoughts dominate the actual conversation. Before i could even say something, i'm already overwhelmed by the internal monologue goin on inside my head, so i shut up.

Experiences: Sad, happy, crazy. They make up life! May it be an engagement into something new, small achievements, discoveries, meaningful conversations, surprises, bad news, difficult tasks, humor, etc etc. Existing after all.

Recreation: I am sad to say that i don't get to read much nowadays coz i am easily distracted! I have 3 books i started and did not finish and i don't know when i could get back to the habit again with passion. I am also becoming less interested in painting bcoz i find it hard to think of a good concept. And guess what, even writing feels like math!

Health: Still alive! 🙂

Realizations: There are instances when i almost give up, but when i'm able to survive one day at a time, i feel hopeful. A little effort from me, and biggest help from people who feel like sunshine 😫. Sometimes the world is not fair, but anyone has the power to make it fair.


And this canvas ???

This morning as i was staring at it, i thought that Life is like a painting. Sometimes it's messed up, mysterious, unpredictable. Like an Abstract on canvas. Sometimes it's in perfect equilibrium. Like a lovely portrait, or a beautiful landscape. If we look deeper, things make more sense. Like a painting, we choose how our colors would give life to a blank medium. No matter how, it has beauty and meaning in its own form.

Now my life is like a canvas waiting to be painted.