missing someone

I wish there's no such feeling as missing someone. Why do we miss people when they are not around. Sometimes we miss them too even when they are around. Even when they are next to you, even when you see each other everyday, even when they have never left, we miss them. It's scary that someone who left may never come back. It's scary that suddenly they may just disappear. It's scary when they won't continue seeing you anymore, or they will just leave. 

Why does missing someone hurt so bad. Why does it make you cry and make you go crazy. It's painful when you badly wanna see the person you miss but you can't do anything. It's sad when you know you can do something to ease your longing but you try not to do it for the person's better sake. It's miserable when all you can do is just wish because everything's too late. 

When my friends are around, i miss them so much i dunno why. I wanna hold their hands and tell them not to go home. When i think of my brothers, i miss them so much tho i know they're just few miles away i could see them anytime. When i see my father near my workplace, i miss him so much thinking that i spend most of my time at work than at home. When i think of my mother, i miss her so much i ask why does she have to be away for such a long time. 

I think, missing someone is the saddest feeling ever. That's why i wish there's no such feeling as missing someone. 

The Sunday Currently | 24

Today just made me feel everything. It's like confusion. Woke up to my alarm at 9 surprising myself that i didn't wake up at 6 when i usually get up at that time with or without an alarm. Probably i was just tired. First thing i thought was to water the plant i bought at a plant exhibit last week. Then i was left with nothing to do again. So i just took a shower and spent about an hour choosing what to wear while thinking what to do. I thought i should eat but i wasn't feeling hungry. So i went to the mall without anything in mind on what to do there. I happened to pass by the cinema, and there was a long line of movie goers. I tailed behind them without any idea what movie to watch. I decided to watch Alden and Maine's movie, because everybody in line were talking about it. And the movie was really good :) 

After that i dropped by McDonald's to have lunch because i thought i still had to eat though i was still not feeling hungry at that time. I had a conversation with my older brother then over the phone, he just shared about some stuff and i didn't really tell him anything in particular. I just listened and answered from time to time. I went back to my apartment and took a nap. It was almost 5 when i woke up. I sent a message to my brother to meet me because i wanted to give him back the money i owed him. Funny that i borrowed money from him to have my eyes checked. Will be wearing glasses starting tomorrow. It's a great relief, but it's frustrating how my eyes got worse in just a short period of time. 

Currently I am...

Reading 
comments about dramas and movies i'm watching online.

Writing 
this post :)

Listening 
to my playlist.

Thinking
about next month. It's gonna be my last month at work. Wow I've been working at the health center for 5 months already?! Time is fast. Really. What to do then? I'm sad.

Smelling 
coffee. I'm just imagining coffee but i can literally smell it right now.

Wishing
to do my best on my remaining days at work. I guess I've been doing well, and i really like the job. I also love the people and friends I've made there. I'm going to miss them. Oh it makes me sad :(

Hoping
for a good productive week.

Wearing 
an over-sized black tee, jeans and slippers.

Loving
being alone this weekend. It prepares me for being alone more often soon.

Wanting
to drink coffee and just sleep.

Needing
some time to think. I feel like there's something out there i have to think about and i need to concentrate on it.

Feeling 
confused and sad. I am happy too but there's just really something that's making me sad.

Clicking
Facebook and Korean dramas- watching "Beautiful Gong Shim" nowadays and i really like it.

"I feel like i'm waiting for something that isn't going to happen ㅠ ㅠ." ©

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연필 영어 YP Team Building

Summer has ended yet fun knows no bounds. Last weekend was the moment we'd all been waiting for charot hahaha. After months of planning and deciding and cancelling and rescheduling we finally got to have our team building. The first for most of my coworkers, since most of them are new, and my fourth already. Woah can't believe I've been working this long in our company. Every year, i'm looking forward to our team building yet at the same time wishing it's my last kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. 

This year's team building was long overdue since it's already rainy season. We even thought it's not anymore possible. But it's a tradition! And it's better late than never. 

We're aware we'd be away for 2 days to a place where there's no internet or stores and the like, yet everybody didn't seem to be bothered. Excitement over inconvenience.  

Where did we go and what did we do.

We went to Palwit Island, Sto. Niño Resort in Guimaras, where we also had our team building 2 years ago. I never thought I'd be back there again, but it was good because last time i didn't really get to appreciate how nice the place was. I was all too focused on the people and on having fun i didn't have time to look around. 

We took a jeepney for 2 hours and a boat for about 15 minutes to reach the island. The weather was bright and it was such a good day. 

 mangroves on the way~

 the resort from a distance~

 

another small beach on the other side of the resort~

pavilion~

@the counter

 

mulberries!~

 

view from the top of one of the islets~

hilltop cottage~

It's past lunch time and we're all very hungry. To get things done faster we were grouped into 3. One was assigned for cooking, the other for setting the table, and another for after-care. 

Everything was set. And it's time for boodle fight!

That was a great lunch! After eating we rested for an hour and prepared for the games. 

Don't know the games we played hahaha, just these~

In one of the games, we had to push each other outside a big circle and the remaining person inside wins. We did our best with all our energy, and that was when most of us got bruises and pains and sand all over our body. But no matter what we all had a good laugh.

We still had more games in line but it started to rain so hard so we all went inside our cottage and took a rest. Then we prepared our dinner. We had grilled chicken and fish and some fruits. Just before we started eating there was a power outage so we ate in the dark. It was quite inconvenient but anyway we managed to finish our meal. 

The power was restored after a while so we cleared the table and washed the dishes. We then went back to the pavilion to chat and drink beer and sing songs. It was a good time : ) 

The next day i woke up to the sound of the waves and my coworkers chattering and laughing. It was another great day, and the last day of our team building. 

We helped each other prepare breakfast. We had rice, hot dog and ham, sandwich with unlimited lettuce, tomatoes and cucumber, and pineapple. We also had shin ramyeon, sotanghon and bihon...why everything was so noodle-ey. And why such a heavy meal! 

the ramyeon in a cut bottle tho~

 

breakfast by the sea : )

After breakfast we then cleared everything and played more games: Tug o' war, egg relay, and mind-games. 

We left the island at around 12:30 pm. Though we're all tired and sleepy, we really enjoyed, and we became more comfortable with each other, as the essence of our team building was to get-to-know and establish rapport. 

Perhaps they will dream about it, expect new experience, explore new places, and have more fun next year. As for me, whether or not i will be able to join, whether still with them or with different people, i just hope it will be as memorable as this.