Does anyone still sleep anymore? Are we both tossing and turning? Oh i must share that i finished watching CLOY in a flash. Bandwagon. And i've read the biographies of all the casts. No effort. And out of the blue, i came accross Manny Pacquiao's son's vlog but was not really interested so i ended up watching Pacman's boxing matches in his entire 20 year career. Then everything related to him started to pop up in my feed. Algorithm. Tired. But sleep would not claim me. And so for a change i reread the 9/11 incident and rememorized the Nightingale Pledge, and watched my stress reliever- Mukbang. But wow it didn't even inspire my appetite. How long has it been since i last had a proper meal. Hey coffee is meal. And maybe 18 oranges in 7 weeks. You see, i don't know exactly how to handle life now. I wish it handles me and i'd follow wherever it takes. For weeks i've been stuck. I spent days and nights blankly. Lately it's all about excessive coffee. Little or no sleep. It's not adrenaline. It's just playing shit with me. I have not been reading or writing or doing anything anymore. I am just here trying to stay sane. I wish to come home. But it hurts to genuinely want something that i eventually stopped wishing for it. It's scary out there isn't it? It's full of impending turmoil. I don't see anything clearly. It's unpredictable.
There's too much in my head that i'm dying to pen them down. Down the memory lane..
11.14.2019 (17:05)- Tower
12.13.2019 (16:48)- Trophy
"Over-All Champion". The team building was the 3rd one i've attended in my current company so far. Back in the Philippines, i attended team buildings too... River Zumba, Island Hopping, Tree Planting, Clubs, etc... But this was different. It wasn't just for fun. It was team work so to speak. Gahd the basketball game seriously gave me flu-like pains for days. But it was worth it.
12.30.2019 (08:13)- GA case
This kills me. Cases this early make me grumpy all day. I have to get up at 5:30 and get on the service at 7 and start the battle at 8. Then i call it a day.
01.07.2020 (20:31)- Award?
My ass. It gave me chills. I never wanted to receive one regardless of how hard i work. Believe me i don't work hard. I don't like to. I appreciate it. But all the others are way much better.
02.05.2020 (09:03) - Trip
It wasn't planned well, but it went well. Armenia was classic. It was pretty. I like rainy season the most but winter wasn't that bad. Leaves falling, warm coats, foreign language, snow flakes. Spontaneity. It always gives the best experience.
02.09.2020 (21:00) - Next trip
Another thing i looked forward to. I was very expectant. The catch up with family and friends, Iloilo city tour, and a staycation at a beautiful island resort. I bought a new luggage bag by the way.
02.23.2020 (19:19)- Suction room
This is where i usually watch the sunrise and sunset. But the day passed quickly that the moon was already overtaking behind the clouds.
03.2020 (00:00) - COVID. Impromptu
03.13.2020 (21:04) - Chocolate Monster
Ah i lost my appetite.
04.02.2020 (23:29) - Experiment
It's been forever since i last touched my brushes, the poor canvas and palette. I was lonely, but i guess they were too. So we had a small reunion. I've read "it's not bad to learn from loneliness. There are things you can see more clearly when you are alone".
04.13.2020 (07:30) - Lollipops
For me, a matter of lollipop and death.
04.10.2020 (13:27) - The Notice
Thank you for the reminder.
Today 04.25.2020 (06:36) - The Park
Morning stroll. Do you know why...i don't like going to...and staying at new places for a long time? Because i'm anxious i'd feel comfortable. That when i become familiar i'd feel at home. And when i have to leave, i'd be confused and heart broken. So i'd stay here briefly.
Until then... So long...
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