The Sunday Currently | 33

Had to double check if it's really Sunday today, for I am not oriented to days and dates anymore. My work schedule confirms it. Time flies fast. Even November is almost over, or is there even such month this year? Just a year ago i was spending most of my hours at home and at work and i never thought one day i'd be where i am right now. How's home? How are the people i used to work with? How are my brothers? It's been a year, and i remember i only talked to them on the phone twice. Yeah, twice in one year. Because they know i don't really talk, and they understand, and they don't pressure me to do so, and i love them for that. I miss them though. So much. And one of the reasons why i don't call them is because i miss them so much. It makes sense. When you miss people, you try to avoid hearing their voice because it will make you feel homesick. It will make you feel sad and lonely. Or is it only in my case?

Today calls for some coffee before getting the day started. Because it's goin to be quite tough. My schedule shows i'm working for 10 hours.

Two weeks without days off and 10 hours to start the 3rd week...how is that? No complains, just let it be. But honestly i was wishing it's different. Maybe something lighter, something familiar... But i can't do anything about it. And so today might start like the weather...gloomy. But it could change to something positive, something good, something inspiring. Let it be!

Currently, I am...

Reading
nothing for weeks? or months? We went to a bookstore last Thursday but all i purchased were pens and a sketchpad.

Writing
this post and finishing the draft that i've been writing forever. It's finished actually, but it feels like i'm waiting for a sign to finally post it.

Listening
to the sound of a jackhammer in the neighbourhood.

Thinking
that i want to draw again. It's been a year. Yes. When i left for abroad, it seemed like i also left everything i enjoyed doing behind. I miss reading, i mean the real kind of reading, when you indulge into a good book, when you learn and discover something new, when you share what you have read. I miss sketching too. All my arts stuff were left home, sadly. And for months i hesitated to buy new materials because i miss my old ones. I am not sure if my hands will work the same way but trying again won't hurt.

Smelling
the cola flavored lollipop that Dr. Farah gave me. Such a sweet and thoughtful human ♥. Yeah i'm having it now after finishing my coffee. It helps when you start the day filling your system with your favorite things...bitter or sweet. See it's something to be grateful for despite of the things i'm whining about.

Wishing
it rains today! I know it will be really cold thereafter but i miss the rain! I miss using the umbrella too kkkkkk

Hoping
everybody enjoys the whole week. In whatever ways.

Wearing
a warm oversized shirt. Because it's getting cold for real i feel it to my bones.

Loving
the temperature! One good thing about winter is that it makes people get closer. Like coffee and conversation, more time spent indoors, random hugs...

Wanting
to eat spicy noodles the entire week. Really.

Needing
some sort of good activity...I need to figure that out.

Feeling
sleepy and lazy and the thought of having a cold shower kills me. So i am thinking of having another cup of coffee in the shower.

Clicking
Messenger. The youngest brother checks on me regularly and it melts my heart.




Take care everyone!