Bluer than blue

Today everything's just so mournful. It feels so lonely here now in a place once so lively and cheerful. It feels so empty, so silent, so sad...

The other day we were complete and happy, our faces showing the merriest smile, our hearts full of love and admiration for each other. The other day we were all in a car, singing together and endlessly talking about random things and we were the happiest. The other day we were waiting for each other at the dining and the delicious dinner ended our stressful day so perfectly. The other day we could not stop smiling, we were sometimes quiet yet one stare could explain everything we wanted to say.

But today was different.

Today was the saddest...the loneliest day ever. Today I woke up with a heavy heart. I didn't feel like getting up or doing anything. How lonely it is to see an empty bed, to not hear a heartful laughter, to not feel a warm presence... How i wish everything was just a dream.

As Ate Jet goes back to the Philippines for good, Des' father dies unexpectedly, Ate Mira moves to another accommodation, this day was marked with a pensive atmosphere.

Given these happenings, I feel like I am slowly breaking into pieces again. Being apart from special people in my life is one of my weaknesses. It makes me extremely lonely when they are away... What do i do? I can't help it ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

I know this is just a bitter episode of our story and this sadness shall pass, but today i couldn't help feeling painful, and i would wallow into this emptiness for now...until our next meeting...to continue our happy chapter...


#hastalavista

When I Met You

Like a budding flower after a storm... Tis how i compare the discovery of new friendship. Suddenly, unexpectedly, in the midst of an overwhelming anxiousness of  meeting new people, there were those who showed up and i felt right away they were the right ones i've been wishing to meet. It's beautiful how they happened to be here at the very place where finding them seemed impossible. It's beautiful how we haven't met that long yet we find each other very comfortable. It's beautiful how we're all totally different yet it was easy to accept each other. It's beautiful how we were once just strangers and then we became friends.

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Thank you Ate Jet for everything. You don't know how grateful i am that we crossed path. The first time i saw you, I knew and felt right away how kind a person you are ♥. Sorry that i've never said thank you for everything you've done...for being a friend and a sister, for taking care of me and for always being there, for helping me to be strong though i think i could never be, and for continuously helping me overcome my weaknesses. Thank you for reminding me of important things that i take for granted, such as sleeping early and not drinking too much coffee hehe. I'm amazed by your instincts, for you can figure out when something is wrong with me and you ask and do something to make everything alright... I am sad that you are leaving and we can't spend that much time anymore but i know someday we'll meet again...our friendship doesn't end here in ksa right? kkk.I love you and tho you're still here, I miss you already!

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Ate Mira ♥. First of all, just wanna tell you 'you are so beautiful.' Seriously. You know the first time we met, i felt like i've known you for a long time. I love everything about you...your being serious and funny and smart at the same time, your being a sister and a mother at the same time...you are such a superwoman. I'm sorry if I am 'pasaway' sometimes, and thank you for understanding my imperfections. Thank you for the meals and meds, for letting me sleep over your room, for your counsel and advices, for cheering me up, for always asking how i am, for everything!!! Many times i almost went crazy with sadness, but you always came just at the right time... I can never forget the little and big things you did for me...when you prepared me snacks to work it made my heart swell that i cried because of so much happiness i couldn't contain, when you let me connect with your internet so i could keep in touch with my family, it saved my life...like literally, as i was almost goin mad and dying at that time ㅠ. I think you are the kindest person on earth and i can never find someone like you. I wanna keep you in my life forever. Thank you and I love you!

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Roxanne!!! My sweet friend ♥ How are you doing? Thank you for everything. Who would have thought we'd be this close tho we've just met not so long ago. It's like magic, being this close like sisters as if we've known each other for a lifetime. I love your being open to me, for not hesitating to share everything...and for trusting me, as i've said...with your small and big details. I treasure the times when we're just sitting together and not saying anything but we know exactly the pieces of each other's thoughts, coz it comes naturally. Thanks for being so caring and kind and I'm sorry for making you sad sometimes. I will try my best to be a good friend : ) Take care of your health! I am happy to know that you wish the same thing as i do: for our friendship to last. Stay charming! I love you!

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Pia!!! I miss you! Sounds familiar? haha. Because that's what i usually say to you. When i don't see you a day something feels missing. I admire you for so many things...your being frank and transparent and funny and cool♥. And maybe your being OC : D. I love listening to whatever you tell me, your life and your dreams and your complains. You are so fearless and i wish i were the same. How to be you? Thanks for not keeping anything from me, it warms my heart when we have conversations with your undivided attention. Tho i know you're independent, still please always listen to Ateng hahaha. We both know she knows things better than us. I am very thankful to both of you for treating me like a sister. I love you! 

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Hi Ate Mel. How do i start...hmmm. You are serious about adopting me right? I love the idea ♥ hahaha. I am so lucky to find a sister in you, it's a dream come true. It doesn't matter that we weren't born from the same mother because the way you care about me validates our sisterhood. Thank you for being so caring and gentle and kind. You made my first few days in this foreign country much easier and comfortable. Thank you for taking time to be with us late at night tho you are supposed to be taking a rest already, and for always sharing with us whatever you have. I love to be with you always because everything feels neutral when you are around. I love you!

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Hey Des! When i found out you're also an Ilongga i was really relieved. At first i felt like i was an outcast because i thought there was no one i had something in common, but then there was you! What a great relief. Thanks for making me feel that i belong hahaha. We can relate, we can talk to each other in our own dialect, we can share about so many things and that's really a great comfort to me ♥. You are so nice and funny and confident, i envy you! hehehe. Anyway I am so glad i got to know you. Thanks for everything. And just a reminder, please bring us pasalubong from iloilo, geurae? Love you! 

Meeting you guys brought back my faith in humanity charot! hahaha. But really, i'm not that scared anymore, I feel i can handle things with you around. I know i have nothing to give and i don't deserve to be surrounded by wonderful people like you but you can count on me on one thing: I will always be a friend no matter what. I wouldn't trade what we have started for anything. 

Thank you for the friendship. ♥

coffee lovers ♥♥♥ '17

KSA Series: Farm Edition

Another getaway we've been restlessly anticipating for a week and everything turned out just as beautiful as we've planned it to be. Well we just spent another friday at a farm! We started out quite too early but we didn't mind anymore how exhausted we were from a week's work because all we could think of was to forget everything for a while, just relax and have fun. It was my second outdoor gala in Riyadh and i was very excited, everybody was : )

Last friday (02-03-17) was spent at Red Sand and Camel farm, and the 'rocky cliffs' as well, not bothered by zero degree celsius!

It was also an unforgettable experience (can tell why it's unforgettable hahaha!) After the adventure i was already secretly wishing we'd spend ever dayoff spending time together. 

Now off we go to wander!

Leaving the urban for a while~~~

dropping by outside IKEA~

It took about an hour from our accommodation to Istenbat Farm in Al Kharhj. The sun was up and the air was warm. It was perfect. No expectations, we just wanted to enjoy everything. 

We're here!!!

the welcoming camels~

donkey and sheeps as well~

fishhhhhhhh

courtesy call. Lol

in this really pretty cottage ♥

We had coffee first and a quick breakfast and we started to tour around...

vegies fresh from the  farm!

Time now for the endless photoshoot! (credits to our mystery photographer)

Candid moments~~~

Time for a mouth-watering lunch! kkkk...

After sharing such a delicious meal, we just enjoyed the remaining time left...we chatted and sang songs, took more pictures, laughed out loud and talked about future plans : D

couldn't get enough! we bought souvenir stuff toys and textiles too!~~~

Time was quite fast and we had to leave already. But we're comin back for sure : ) 

Special thanks to Taha for driving us to the farm : ) 

Bidding goodbye to the camels~~~hehehe

Needless to say, we had so much fun. Everything was great...the place, the food, the adventure and US!

The experience of venturing new places with good people, making memories and developing a deeper friendship is surely one for the books. Cheers to more adventures!!! Til next time!