it surprises me. . .

that some people are very very kind
that i feel so lonely at times but i want to be alone
that i'm so speechless sometimes
that i love grannies very much
that my favorite author isn't the writer of my favorite book

that i hate my friends acting stupid again and again but i still love them

that my brothers are actually very nice to me sometimes
that i don't like talking to my parents but i want them to ask me things
that i have a sudden urge to draw or write in the middle of the night or during a busy day
that there are men who are not faithful to their girlfriends or wives
that there are unfaithful women too
that i'm lazy but i wanna be productive
that i don't know anything about Harry Potter or Twilight
that i don't know how to cook
that many people continue doing bad even when they know it's bad
that my father is very caring and loving in his being strict
that all of a sudden old friends send me a message and even ask me out
that some mornings feel so good i feel it's the most wonderful day ever
that i never get tired of coffee
that sometimes i want to be a student again
that i feel very very sad for no reason at all
that i'm nice and mean at the same time
that i love my brothers but sometimes i hate them
that i'm so dumb and stupid most of the time
that i love watching horror movies, romantic comedy movies, and melodrama films
that i used to hate hotdog and corned beef and fried chicken
that i could listen to Yiruma's all day
that choosing which clothes to wear is my daily problem
that i buy books and never read them
that i love the mountains, the beach, the farm. . . i love nature
that i feel a very strong connection with people i met the first time
that i feel proud for people i don't know
that i'm so scared of clowns
that i want to have a baby but i don't want a husband
that i consider my 3rd grade elementary teacher as one of the kindest on earth
that i love rainy days
that i have never eaten taho 
that sometimes i like to sleep on the floor than on the bed
that some days are so slow
that i don't get mad easily
that the view from our balcony gives me the same feeling of peace everytime
that little things make me realize that life is beautiful
that a good cry is all i need to make everything fine
that i start to like a color i used to hate just because a fav celebrity likes it
that kids are very observant they notice things we overlook
that some people are so witty and their sense of humor is spontaneous
that the phrase "love is blind" proves true sometimes
that i could guess what a friend is thinking just by looking at her
that some days i just want everything to end
that some people are confidently beautiful with a heart
that i'm so afraid of trying new things
that i fall in-love with songs i hear for the first time
that so many things surprise me...