Ponderings at 9 am

The other day we were boisterously laughing and screaming like crazy. Our voices echoed on the walls of the corridor but we didn't care about everything and everyone. We were having the time of our lives. There were only us, and the pouring rain outside. It was perfect. We couldn't ask for anything else but only for that moment to last. We were letting ourselves drown in pure and innocent happiness.

Now i'm here in the lobby again, braving the heat of the sunny morning puncturing through the glass walls. The light is blinding that i have to close my eyes. I am alone this time. Suddenly there are acute retrograde flashes dancing before my vision. I'm seeing you. I'm remembering your laughters, your rants, your footsteps, your grinning face. I want to smile back, but my muscles won't move.

Why instead of feeling happy, i'm choking on my own tears. I'm trying to suppress my feeling but it's overwhelming. I can't hold it anymore. I am not sad. I just remembered our happy times. I just realized that once, in my life, there was you. You happened to me and i'm grateful about it. I wonder how things would be like now if they're the same as they used to be. Everything seemed completely fine. We were happy. We didn't bother to think about the next day. But some things happened without our control. They were unplanned and beyond our intervention.

Now this is something to contemplate...

In life, there are instances that are not predetermined, but they happen anyway. There are also people, who we least expect to cross path with but we meet anyway. Whether we like it or not, these two things have either a profound or superficial impact and bring about a change in us. And we are never ever the same again. Whether it's serendipity or destiny or coincidence, these are things a human mind can't decipher. Some would accept, some would neglect. We continue or we let go. I guess the same applies in the nature of friendship gained and gone.

We may never meet again. Accept that there are just things that don't last for a lifetime. But memories are for us to keep in our hearts...forever.

PS. People come and go. They come to teach you, to love you, or to experience life with you. But for some reason they cannot stay.