Lately

Lately I

Life has been full of waiting lately

Of wishful thinking, worries and longing

Something bothers me and I can't figure it out

There’s this kind of feeling I can’t understand.

Feels like I’m not the girl I used to be

Who used to enjoy the very little things

Who loved what’s there and didn’t mind what wasn’t

I never thought I’d feel this way. 

It feels like I’m all left behind

Am all so bored and dying and lonely

Tryna enjoy the present and not to hurry

But there’s this kind of feeling I can’t understand

Feels like I need some cool change

But what or where exactly should I start?

Just thinking what has to be changed is so hard

Never felt more impatient in my life.

Can somebody please enlighten me?

Can somebody help me realize what I want to do?

Can somebody make me see what is beautiful?

Can somebody just stay by my side when I’m all alone…

It’s all over me now, it’s out of control

I’m letting everything happen and I dunno how to handle

Whether it’s wrong or fine I dunno anymore

I just want to escape, I just want to forget.

I’m drifting away and I’m following the current

For this might be the easiest thing to do now

Contradicting my feelings I’ve proven hard

So just let it be, come what may…