The Sunday Currently | 17

I've been staring at the screen for hours and I've all but spent it watching 6 episodes of a drama. But feeling less guilty because i made sure to get all the errands done before getting myself lost in a story that is getting more and more interesting. But as much as i want to finish it, I have to sleep early to prepare for tomorrow. 6 more episode to go :(

Currently I am...

Reading 

the group chat. *chuckles* *shakes head*. I promised not to open my messenger for a while especially when i am writing, but i'm afraid i might miss something important since the friends always have unpredictable plans. And it's so addicting to scroll down.    

Writing 

notes, blog posts, and this entry. 

Listening 

"Angel" by Sarah Mclachlan. I'm in tears. 

Thinking

about things and people. A day ago somebody told me that it's difficult to read what's on my mind, and that I don't show my emotions, or i am always hiding something. So i am kindof figuring out the best way to show them that i am not difficult to reach out to, and that they could ask me anything they want. hihihi

Smelling 

ethyl alcohol. Been obsessed with sanitizing my hands quite often since i started working at the health center, not because i'm conscious of my hygiene but because we never run out of sanitizer there and i'm just taking advantage of it. I'm also smelling water. Been drinking lots of distilled water and i feel like it has some distinct smell.  

Wishing 

that it rains for one whole week! 

Hoping

that tomorrow and the following days will be good, to wake up on the right side of bed, to have a full schedule, some light to heavy challenges, surprises, good news, and productivity.

Wearing 

a white shirt, shorts, slippers and cap. 

Loving

the fact that, tho not too soon, i know there will be another holiday again. Another chance to spend time with my family, or get together with my friends for another getaway. 

Wanting

time to pass by quickly. After spending 2 days at home, i'm all alone again. So i want it to be Monday soon so i could see my co-workers again. Work time is like play time, eh? 

Needing

to iron my clothes for tomorrow. I love that we wear uniform at work now, there's no need to think of what to wear the next day. It used to be really really bothersome. 

Feeling 

good, relaxed, ready. 

Clicking 

Gooddrama, Messenger, YouTube and Twitter. 

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Holiday at Home

Holiday's over too soon! But the oh-so-good feeling still lingers. As today's the last day of vacation, i am trying  to enjoy every minute of it. What could be nicer than being at home, feeling the pure and clean air, smelling the earth, seeing the greens everywhere, and spending time with the family! Ah, I am in heaven right now. Nothing like being reunited with the bed, or havin a quiet time on the balcony. It is so nice to think of things, or just sit for hours listening to music, or read a novel, or just watch the world go by. The world is still and quiet. But if you just stare long enough, you could feel something magical is coming up. You know it’s like the one you see in the movies! Hahaha! 

And I am so awestruck with the small garden filled with wild flowers. Watching them fluttering in the breeze whilst standing on the doorway brings a wonderful feeling. Once you open the door, freshness and softness just pour through. I hope it rains though. The plants are starting to wither because of the extremely hot weather. 

I don't know what to do today, and there seems to be nothing to do. So I am just here, daydreaming, wishing, wondering and wandering. There is no television or a radio. The internet connection is so slow I’m not even sure if I could post this blog later. And with the poor network signal, the mobile phone seems useless except for its camera. 

The neighbors are far. Though I wanna take a walk outside, 34 degrees is just too hot to handle I’d rather stay indoors. I hear chickens, rustling leaves, the winds creating a weird sound as it slaps against the glass door of the balcony. Inside the house, I see books, magazines and papers scattering on the long table, some boxes and other stuff. I don't feel like reading now. I am just staring at the books and it makes me feel satisfied. I can't help but smile. 

So far so good. My mood could easily shift from being ecstatic to feeling gloomy or short tempered, but now I just feel fine. I'm secretly wishing somebody would visit me here and ask me to his/her house and have coffee together, or have something cold to sip. But I’m fine being alone now. The vice mayor of town had lunch with us, after which my father left with him to have a meeting with a politician running for vice governor of the province. My brothers are somewhere only they know, my little nephew is playing with his buddies, and my aunt is somewhere with the elderly friends. It feels so nice to be by myself after spending some time with the people i love : )

Though I wanna stay home for a day more, I have to go to attend to some responsibilities. Yet still thankful for today, and for more holidays to come : ) Til next time then! ~_~

The Sunday Currently | 16

Spent my weekend in solitude being able to get things done with no distractions like watching 3 movies in a row or browsing at a bookstore. And i feel like it's officially summer. Not a cloud in the sky, the blue air sharp and clean and hot. The whole week has been too hot, so i am missing the pool again, the friends, the place away from the city, and some drinks. Last weekend had been fun! And i am looking forward to the next getaway : ) 

  

  

3.5.16

Currently I am...

Reading 
"Outlaw in Paradise". Started reading it just last week and everyday i feel excited to go to the library to continue reading. I spend my lunch break there and sometimes i sneak out of work for few minutes whenever we don't have so many things to attend to just to read. I think it's not that the books there are interesting, but it's the library that makes me motivated to read. I noticed i'm the only person there every afternoon, and i really like the place because aside from the fact that it's very quiet, spending some time there gives me a sense of productivity. I mean, because we actually do nothing completely after lunch time. But we have to stay inside during working hours, pretend we're doing something or find something to do and wait for the time to pass. And i find it strange that i enjoy reading the books in the library than the books i have at home. I should donate my books then and read 'em there. (oh why am i writing nonsense. oh f!)

Writing 
The Sunday Currently 16.

Listening 
to the movie i'm watching. It's a 2015 Korean movie "The Beauty Inside." 

Thinking
that i couldn't really keep my promise to stop drinking coffee in the morning. Two days after i made a resolve, i had coffee again because my head was terribly stabbing and nothing could make it feel better. 

Smelling 
apples and bread. 

Wishing 
for calmness, patience, peace, and an open mind. 

Hoping
that my brothers are doing well. I miss them so much :(

Wearing 
a gray shirt, shorts and slippers. 

Loving
this day today. I, being alone, and everything around just the same. I also love it when i am not alone, and everything around is just the same. 

Wanting
to eat something very spicy. Been craving for days but I have no one to find a good restaurant to eat with. 

Needing
to drink lots of water. I don't feel thirsty very often but i know i need to hydrate as much as i could because of the extremely hot weather which seems to be getting hotter each day. 

Feeling 
peaceful? Just fine and i have no idea why. It seems as if all the interesting things are happening in one day. But i don't know what those things are. Just a feeling. And i hope the feeling sticks around for long. 

Clicking 
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Mi Madre

My mind is filled with thoughts of you

When the sun rises on a day so blue

And when at night it’s hard to sleep

Because your presence, I greatly miss.

I think of days so long ago

I cared about just me and you

On rainy days and summer nights

We never left each other’s side.

I think of you when you can’t remember

Those days so fair like late September

I think of you until it hurts

Til no tears left and laughter bursts.

I think of thoughts that cannot be

Far to reach, impossible to see

Waiting for you feels like forever

And day by day hope seems to wither.

To hear your voice oceans apart

Confuses me, where do I start

Like a stranger I knew long ago

Or like a friend who became a foe.

Promises were words I wasn't familiar

I only believed in things peculiar

And I only believed in words you've said

Til this day they’re in my head.

I think of you when I shouldn't be

Things just become unclear to me

Daybreak often finds me sobbing 

The night hears me deeply sighing.

I smile at thoughts we used to share

To make believe that life is still fair

But now I’d always catch myself wondering

Over the things that have no meaning.

I think of times we had small talks

I think of days we went for long walks

They come to mind when I’m alone

Now all I see is an empty home.

I never thought one day you’d leave

And that day came, it was hard to believe

How much longer will this continue?

When will life be brighter than blue.

See i'm always longing to see your face

Always clouded with endless wishes

Always wondering when is the day 

That you'll come back and forever stay.

P.S. just...come home soon...

Haven

Feeling extra happy : ) I just started my new job, but it's not the main reason why. It's because I found a great place to spend my break time everyday. 

On my first day of work, during lunch break, i decided to walk around my workplace to familiarize myself with the other structures and buildings. On the left side of the health center where i work is the post office. Across from the post office is the gymnasium. On the left side across from the gymnasium is the municipal hall. On the right side of the gymnasium is the playground. And on the left side of the health center is the public library. 

The library. When i saw it, i felt like I've been looking for it for a long time. And that i finally found it.

I felt the urge to enter. At first I was hesitant to open the door. I peeked to see if there was somebody inside. But it seemed like no one’s around. When I opened the door, I smelled the old books at once. And the smell of dust. It was very quiet. I walked consciously so as not to make any sound. Then I heard soft footsteps coming from somewhere. It was the librarian, a very kind old lady with short nearly-gray hair and small glasses. She was wearing a pink shirt, the same shirt that my seniors were wearing at the health center. I thought maybe they’re wearing the same uniform because they are all government workers distributed to different departments and areas in town. 

‘’Good afternoon ma’am”, I said as I bowed my head. 

“Hello! Welcome.” She smiled.

Can I use the library? I smiled back shyly.

“Sure you can.” She said. “If you’re not here, we have nothing to do.”

“Thank you.”

“Just write your name in the log book first.” She added.

“Okay ma’am. Thank you.”


It seemed like the library hasn't been used for quite some time. I couldn't help but smile. “Why did I find you only now?” I wondered. 

The place looked very old. But it was very neat and organized. There was a different aura probably brought by the smell of old books, the way they looked untouched, the stillness, and the empty seats and tables, the light reflecting on the glass windows. I fell in love with it. “From now on, I will be spending some time here, an hour every day, for six months. Or always. Forever.” I thought to myself.