Lazy. Tis how i describe how I've been for the past few days.
Haven't done anything great aside from eating and doodling. Even weekend was spent the most in front of the computer, few minutes at McDonald, and anywhere else randomly. With my volunteer work ending soon, i don't know what to do with my free time. I'm occasionally thinking if i should continue or not. If YES, i'm gonna be living the same routine life and the usual pattern. So there's no need to think more.
If NO, i don't know what's next. It's hard to decide! Hull!
Okay stop thinking about it. I feel good now. Thanks to my crazy mind. Crazy how i'm thinking of ways to organize a bedroom, to start reading a novel or a cookbook ( i seriously need to learn cooking), to iron my clothes tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, to drink hot or cold coffee, to watch videos or learn Hangul instead, etc...these thoughts occupy my mentality thus consuming my time (at least) hahaha
So i think it's reasonable to dedicate this quote to myself "Rishi, you're a great procrastinator", because I've been thinking and thinking for hours and not materializing any of my thoughts.
To sum up, on Mondays to Fridays i have about 4 hours and 10 minutes break with my online teaching job from 09:30 am~9:20 pm shift. And yes i spend most of it listening to music. Sometimes i don't even eat meals anymore because i don't have the appetite to. On weekend I also work online for about 3 hours only, which gives me a very long break. So I usually spend it strolling around the mall, reading articles and entertainment stuff on the net, or visiting my hometown when the weather is good.
After working for my online job, I head to the hospital for my volunteer work from 11:00 pm to 7:00 in the morning. Sometimes we're very busy. We have unpredictable number of patients with emergency cases such as cardiac and respiratory problems, deliveries, vehicular accidents and so on. Sometimes we're also fortunate not to have even 1 patient the entire shift. We can then take a nap, do some paper works, and eat snacks.
Why do i say i'm lazy when i work for 2 jobs? Because of break times. That feeling when you don't know what to do you just wish you're continuously working.
And since i can't make a solid plan at the moment, i wanna share the songs I've been listening to over and over again since this morning.
- -Rainbow (South Border)
- -High (The Speaks)
- -Bad Day (Daniel Powter)
- -Somewhere Only We Know (Keane)
- -Smile (Uncle Kracker)
- -Unwell (Matchbox Twenty)
- -You're My Bestfriend (Queen) Remembering my bestfriend while listeninng to this...Gee!
- -Snow Flower 눈의_꽃) (Seo Young Eun)
- -True (Ryan Cabrera)
- -Truly Madly Deeply (Savage Garden)
It's my break time again. I can't think of anything to do, so i thought of writing this not-worth-reading note while sound trippin and sippin some coffee at the same time.
I need motivation, inspiration, enlightenment and more coffee...please...
